I had a horrible flu with a fever for about 5 days just a month or so back. I had to goto the hospital too but mainly because I was incredibly dehydrated and couldn't stop puking so they put me on nausea medicine, gave me 4 liters of IV and then pumped some strong opiates (Demerol, I believe) in me from swollen intestines. Are panic attacks always happening to you or is it just a symptom of whatever is going on?

I'm trying to get tomorrow off so I can attend the Arizona show. Other than that I have a free day to do jack shit. I'll probably get some interviews and reviews started or done with.

Well they've been pretty sparse over the past few years. Sometimes they come out of nowhere, but in this case the virus set it off. Its real easy for me to get into a "this will last forever" mindset and start doing anything I can to try and appease the panic. Originally I thought I was just getting panic because I was thinking of going to law school + moving/medication wasn't working anymore, I didn't realize it was an actual sickness until I took my temperature. They're doing tests on some blood I gave today, so if its realted to a vitamin deficiency or something they'll find it, but I doubt it. They gave me some Finagrin for nausea, but I don't like the side effects. Obviously I'll take it if I have to regardless.

Wanna study for the LSAT together? Er... look over previous tests, I guess. Every opinion I hear is different.

memorial day

and good beer.

I already took the LSAT three time actually, and ended up with a 163. I took a course that really helped, I'll let you know if I remember the name. The main place, for me, that it helped were the logic games. If you learn to map them out kinda like math they're much easier. But then again the guy behind me could ace those, but couldn't do the read a paragraph and respond questions well, so its really a matter of your aptitude. One thing I did learn is its a skills test, not an IQ one. My problem was I drug my feet applying so schools couldn't offer me much scholarship money, so I won't be going this next year. Plus I don't know if I really even want to do law, I just know I don't want to be in service.

Interesting. Yeah, I'm sort of on the fence about being in law as well. If I went forth, it would be in the patent or specifically, the energy field. Time will tell. I don't even want to go to school again.

Currently I'm facing the last three days of work at my temp position. After that, I'll leave Illinois for an extended period of time. No place to go, no reason or nothin'. Gonna shoot down south, then it's either east or west. If anyone can be of assistance- literally anywhere- let me know. I'll bring with ample amounts of tapes and my own equipment for potential collaborations.

I haven't seen the ocean in nearly a decade. Looking forward to getting out of the fucking harsh political correctness that is Illinois. Just want to relax and know what its like to be in my twenties.

Just got an Arv & Miljö cassette from Matthias. After ripping the packaging apart, I realize it was a poster for the HSV/Megan split.

FUCK

I get it. Brazil is better than the US. I'm over it.